Mitt liv

Much has happened since last time. Been home at Moms for two weeks. Been lovely and a bit sad. My beautiful and loved kitten was put to sleep. I still have these guilty feelings but there where nothing to do for her more then to let her sleep for ever. We at least had a evening and night together. Both Dante and me had a chance to say goodbye to her and show her we truly loved her. I believe she was happy to be with us her last hours in life. She purred and stroke herself at us all the time and never left our side. I so hope she’s happy now with her sister. Love you always my little baby-girl.

Moving on…

School goes fine. Having the last course before semesters out for summer. Having 2 weeks of theory and then I’m of to the hospital at the gynecologic ward to practice as a nurse-student. Going to be fun although I’m a bit nervous and scared. Since I’m an educated non-nurse-but-some-sort-of-nurse already I’m worried they are expecting more out of me and I’m afraid I’m going to fail them on that.

Moving on..

It’s a bit lonely to be back here in my dorm. Been home for two weeks always surrounded by beloved ones and now back in a dorm that well It’s a bit lonely. Longing for my move in seven weeks.

Happy for my new friends that supports and are showing me that they do care for me. I so love you all!! I hope you all know this!

Humm off to bed now… or?

Know I haven’t been blogging lately. I can’t say why cause I don’t really know. Much has happened to me but not important at the moment.

Well the spring is arising and I love the sun and the birds and all about spring. Lately I’ve been having my feelings going around like a roller coaster. I am happy. school goes well, i got a summer-job at the hospital, I have lovely friends, going on great with my family. Yeah everything is great but still my feelings tremble and acting like they are in a roller coaster. Something is missing in my life but I really don’t know what it is!

Right now I am at my moms house. visiting. Been cuddling with my baby boy. Talking with my brother, meeting with old friends and having a blast! But now, here, sitting all alone I am missing something and I don’t know what. I feel like running a mile but yet just sit still and do nothing. A very strange feeling.

Well well.  Going to sleep. Night all!

Yet again am I listening to music and sitting here to write something interresting about my life. Not much has happend these few days. Mostly been reading Fanfic and studying for school. Been to school today and well the first lesson was quit boring but the others where some interresting. Changed seat and had a chanse to glare at a lovely boy

Anyway I should start on some of my essays (spew).

Listening to some good music and letting my mind flick. It’s weekend and I have a lot of homework to do and all. It’s middle of the night and I came home from my Girl Friend for about an hour ago. Have had lots of fun tonight. We made pizza(Yeah we made it) and drank cola. Saw some movies hanged out at Internet and talk a lot. It was really nice. Been a while sens last time and I really had missed here although we speak some times throw MSN it’s really not the same as meeting face to face. As always we talked about boys and girls(just me too she likes only dudes), family and school. And as usually I made a fool out of myself ha ha  gave her some neck and back massage(not naked you perverts) and I said out loud ” Man your hard!”  haha  she laugh really hard and me too and she quoted me on FB!!  haha  well  that’s me. I always says stupid stuffs ha ha.

Well well  then I was going home and no fucking way I would walk home through Gamlegård so I decided to take the bus and she followed me down and the fucking bus wasn’t coming until 30 minutes later. Well we walked throw the neighbourhood and it was so fucking cold. Could barely feel my nose, hands, thighs. Well well  now I home and sitting here in bed and wishingI had a lover to crawl down with and kiss all night long

Well well  someday it might happen!

Good night people and I love writing in English and I love reading fanfic novels.

Yours throuly

Sandra

This week has gone past in very fast. Yesterday I was at the Core and helping out in the disco. It was really fun and I’m starting to get very good in mixing drinks (in my thoughts I think so). I wasn’t home until 3 o’clock and had a hard time to get some sleep. And today I was so tired and driveled that I did not pay any attention to the teacher. I had a hilarious time with my group mate ha ha. But now I feel that I did miss some in the lecture. But hey, who says no to a handsome guy And I liked the follow-you-home

I was thinking I would do some homework later but I fucked me self in that. I made dinner and then I followed the girls to the badminton at the school. Had a very good time and think my arms going to ache tomorrow.  It felt good to do some work out and I’m starting to think I really should start seriously. But I would need some help thou I have no idea about how to build up muscles. Wondering if there is someone who could help me. The local gym doesn’t have instructors it’s more of a your-own-training. Yeah yeah   I probably need to make some sleep now  

Bye for now!

Sandra

It’s some time ago I wrote something in here. I had many thoughts and wanted to write them down but I didn’t have the time or patience to do it. Well I will try tonight.

I often think back at the past year of 2009 and still can’t believe all the greatness that I been through. It has been a wonderful year and I can actually say now, that I really have been happy far more times then ever. I meet a wonderful man who is my bestes of friends, I got accepted to nursing school, I moved 10 miles from home, I had my surgery and has lost approximately 25 kg. Gotten myself some new friends and is feeling more alive and happy for the first time ever in my 25 years. No kidding at all!

Right now I’m sitting here in this tiny 19 sq.m. room all alone and at peace.

I often have hundreds of thought going throw my head every single day, but now days they don’t get to me as they did before. And I love it when people tells me that the way I sound and is looking is more then I used to. This is wonderful for me to hear. It’s hard to explain but it’s a lovely feeling knowing that I am strong and happy.

For this year(2010) I hope to do well at school, loose more weight and hopefully love finds me.

Well I guess that’s all for now. I’m going to continue reading these lovely romantic novels that Emy showed me on the Internet. I’m only going to crawl up in my bed with my computer and lose myself into the fiction world of love, drama and of course sex 

For now  yours truly

The Thinner Sandra

Ja då fyller man 25 om 3 dagar och vill fira det med familjen. Eftersom jag bor 10mil hemifrån så fråga jag mor om jag kunde ha det hos henne och hon sa nej att hon inte orka utan tycker att farsan ska hålla det. Ja jag tog henne på orden och fixade det och farsan ställde upp. Vad sker Jo idag tala mor om för mej att varken hon, gubben hennes o mormor vägrar komma för det hålls hos farsan. Fy fan säger jag bara. Varenda jävla år så ska jag bli besviken på min födelsedag. Det är kanske inte så jävla konstigt att jag blir sur och tvär när det närmar sig min dag???????

Ja ja jag får sitta är uppe i mitt rum och fira för mej själv för inte fan kommer någon att gratta en eller komma ihåg mej. Inte ens de som kallar sej mina vänner brukar gratta mej. Men men  så är det väl. Jag passar bara ibland och fy fan om jag glömmer dem!!!!!!!!!!!

Ja efter myke funderingar o samtal med andra så e de beslutat nu(alltså jag har tagit beslutet) att jag ger upp det här med att dejta och vara intresserad och flörta och kärlek. Det är inte för mej. Jag blir ändå sårad och ensam och som alltid  vem fan skulle vilja ha en ful fet tjej som mej? Men ändå smyger skiten på en o man blir intresserad o man hoppas. denna gången gjorde jag rätt i varje fall o fråga runt innan jag typ la in en stöt(eller typ bara berättade) på personen ifråga.  Så nu slipper jag bli ratad och känna mej ledsen.

Sov gott imorgon e skola igen!

Ja idag tog man lite sovmorgon vilket var riktigt skönt faktiskt. Sen tog jag o köka lite frukost och samtidigt gjorde en del på min Hemtenta. Hela korridoren sov länge idag så det var skönt att sitta själv i köket och arbeta. Har verkligen haft plugg lust idag, men vid typ 13 tiden blev jag fasligt trött och gick in o la mig på sängen och haha  jag somnade. Vid 16 så satte Anna och jag mej ner och börja skriva och plugga in Cellen inför vår stora tenta som sker i Januari. Men det är så många områden och mycke fakta att ta in så det är bra att börja i tid. Anna är superkul att arbeta med. Som jag sagt till henne tycker jag det är riktigt trist att vi inte går i samma klass. Då hade det inte varit så förbannat ensamt på föreläsningarna. Fortfarande verkar det som om folk inte vill sitta tillsammans med mej eller så är det jag som inte fattar alls.  Men men  i varje fall så satt Anna och jag och plugga i 5 h. Kan ni tro det!!  Jag är förvånad! Men men bra gick det Ochvi beställde hem pizza från Venedig  otroligt god pizza och hör o häpna jag dumpade inte alls. UNDERBART!!

Ja sen till nästa plåga. Fruktansvärt jobbigt att vara intresserad av nån som intresserar en väldigt mycket så man inte kan prata med personen samt att man har ingen aning om hur fan man lägger in en stöt. Fått många tips om att jag ska prata ställa frågor etc. Men hur gör man det när man får tunghäfta??  Sjuttsingen alltså!!   Allt är svårt. Och hur vet man att personen är intresserad? Varför finns det ingen manual???

Ja ja  natti natti. Nu ska jag titta vidare på Wild Hogs!

jahapp

sitter här o har mått kasst idag men börjar må liiite bättre faktist. Har många tankar och funderingar på livet i allmänhet!